Thursday, January 12, 2012

Confusion.

Well it's been quite the interesting week to say the least. my mind is reeling a mile per minute lately so its hard to know where to even begin. I've been so overwhelmed that i have moments where it's difficult to keep a thought together long enough to form coherent sentences.
essentially, the main questions that have been running through my mind boil down to the same ones we all ask ourselves at some point. I've been asking myself these questions without finding any answers for far too long.

WHAT do I want to do with my life?
WHO do I want in my life?
WHY do things happen the way they do?

The future is scary. not knowing the answers to these questions is scary. I'm in the process of finding myself. finally figuring out who I am and who I want to be. It's hard and it's confusing but I'm starting to realize that I need to listen to my gut instincts more. I need to start believing in myself.

One. Step. At. A. Time.

Monday, January 2, 2012

2012.

Dear 2012,
I know that the year before you had a lot of ups and downs, and i know that you might feel pressured to be just as varied, diverse and unpredictable as 2011 but believe me when i say that none of that will be necessary. Don't worry about comparing yourself to other years. please.
 2012, please be memorable, enlightening, breathtaking, different, adventurous, and full of love. i realize that this is a lot to ask so if some of those requests aren't possible, all i really want to say is...
2012 please be good to me.